I really admire a lot of people around here. I wish I'd think of telling them this more often, but I tend to keep my thoughts to myself most of the time, except for when I just have to rant, so I don't say things I should.
I admire artists who are original, who find their own style and don't cave to what the crowd wants. Doesn't mean you have to keep drawing the same way all the time. Everybody changes. But making something original in the world is a really fine thing. I admire all you guys who really try to create something new.
I'm going to find a quiet time and just put the comic up. What am I waiting for? I don't know. I am a cringing mess when I think about it. I argue with myself about it, telling myself I'm being stupid to hesitate. But that's just what I do. All the time. I guess I just like being mostly private about things, which is good if you're always aware of all the mistakes you make. Then no one will know. Pathetic.
I guess it would be better to redo some of the old comic (minus the parts I'm leaving out), but I don't know. I look at it, and the difference between then and now is sometimes startling, but I don't think I have the energy to just redraw all that. I like moving on to the next thing. So this means there would be pages of new stuff mixed with pages of old stuff, which seems sort of cheap and lazy. But who knows? Maybe my perfectionist streak will take over, and I'll redo it all. For sure, perfectionism can be an annoying thing. Haha, especially when you will NEVER be perfect. Dammit. OMG haven't I talked about this over and over?
I once knew a published author. I read one of her books, and I commented to her on a part that I really liked, and she told me that her editor had tried to get her to leave that part out. She'd had doubts about it herself. Moral of the story: Even if you have doubts, someone is going to like it.